Not from blogging. You would never be so lucky!
Nope, I'm taking a break from reJuJu.
See, I haven't been interested in sewing for weeks now. Knitting either. Which is pretty weird for me, yeah?
And I've been thinking, maybe it's because it became something else I had to do. Another item in a long to-do list. The stores needed stuff to sell, and I had to make that stuff. Needed, had to. Not my favorite words, always.
I've also been thinking that it's because I started thinking more about what I thought would sell than what I felt like making. I know it shouldn't have affected me, but it just sort of quashed my creativity. I don't totally understand this, but it happened.
For example, this crazy ruffled tee is probably too out there to sell in either store:
It's a little rugby-meets-beauty pageant. But I really liked making it. It felt silly and creative and exciting. I haven't felt that feeling in a while.
The new semester is starting, too, with lots of new projects on the horizon. I feel reinvigorated by work and don't need to grasp at other career ideas so much (not that reJuJu was a career. More of a career-fantasy, maybe). The kids are playing soccer and having playdates and starting school. I like snuggling with Eric and watching Tosh.0 at night. I want sewing to be something I get to do and not something I have to do.
I'll miss that little bit of spending money I earned, but in the end, if I'm choosing between how I spend my time and how I spend my money, I guess I'm more interested in time.
I sound a little defensive. I guess I'm afraid of quitting, and part of me feels like I'm quitting. But mostly I know I'm not. I know I'm just taking a break, giving myself a break, and that's just the right medicine.