It's been a rough time at work. Have you guessed that? There's not much I can say yet, except that the recession has hit my workplace, if not financially, then at least mentally. There is a scarcity mentality, and there is meanness, and a lack of respect for others. Oh, and much misunderstanding.
But that is all I can say for now.
What can be said is that I've been grasping at moments of grace wherever I can find them, and trying to stay whole when everything feels as if its pulling me into a million tiny fragments. These moments of grace have come in the form of phone calls from friends and family; E., who always listens calmly and has my back; from the laughter and joy of my girls; from Milo and the crazy kitties; from the beauty of nature; from the beauty of things; from hot baths and red wine and the everyday. And this, the view from Van Bibber, where I try to walk Milo whenever I can:
We are so blessed. And still I struggle. My real struggle has been to stay in the present and not get lost in the elsewhere of wondering and guessing at and scheming. Life in the present is pretty good.
I am away until next weekend, thankfully, but I'll be back posting soon. I hope things are well for you, and know things will turn around for me, too, soon.